Today at 11:09am I witnessed my grandmother take her last breath. I never wanted to experience such pain. I witnessed my children’s first breaths of life and now my grandmothers last. She surely was an amazing woman. The woman who taught me Spanish, the woman who I learned to cook from, and the woman who would watch ESPN Deportes.
Today at 3:00pm we celebrated my sons first birthday. He’s taught me so much. He taught me that no matter what push for what you want. He and my daughter have taught me what unconditional love is and how God’s love is.
Many people are probably wondering how can she still go on with a party after she just witnessed her grandmother die. You see, growing up when someone we knew passed away we chose to celebrate the happy times in their lives. What did they accomplish in life, how did they make you laugh, what songs they liked, our fondest memories and over all how they made you feel. Sure we would feel down and out because we’re only human. But knowing that they were not suffering any more or that they were in a better place made us feel at peace.
My peace today was when I was setting everything at the park for the party. In my mind I was like ” should have I gone with this party anyways, omg I’m so behind, I need this. I need that. ” Just then, right above my head, floating in the clear blue sky was a beautiful black and yellowish green butterfly. My grandmothers favorite color was green. Want to know what’s crazy? While writing this entry I looked up the meaning of a butterfly and this is what I read ” Butterflies are deep and powerful representations of life. Many cultures associate the butterfly with our souls. The Christian religion sees the butterfly as a symbol of resurrection. Around the world, people view the butterfly as representing endurance, change, hope, and life.” It was as if God sent that little reminder that I did make the right decision and everything was going to be ok. I truly thank my Lord for His constant reminders.
Today I chose to celebrate life. Today I chose to celebrate the many years my grandmother spent on earth and the year from when my son was born. She wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. Why do we wait until someone dies to speak about their greatness? Celebrate your life today. As cliche sounding as it may be you should live life today as if there were no tomorrow. Take that job, call that friend, eat that dessert, do that act of kindness, hug that family member, mend those quarrels, witness to someone, hug your spouse, etc…. I could name so many things. But what is holding you back? What are you waiting for? Live that dream, live your life and celebrate while you’re still able to! After all, I’m pretty sure you’ll have your version of my butterfly saying it’s all going to be ok.
This is dedicated to you grandma!!!! I love you.